runjumphidelose

I hate when they're right, stupid psychs.
But I should be working on at least one of the two papers that are due in the next two days, but hey, why take the easy route when I could just stress and pressure myself till i explode causing a breakdown of massive proportions. ohhh run on sentence, bad runon sentence. anyway its almost one in the morning, I think I'll go to bed now. I have to wake up a 6:45 for work, and studying.  I cant remember Philip Larkin's work to save my life right now. okay,  I'm starting to babble, time to go.

oh, and nikki
yes, nikki?
I'm kinda proud of you, you did well today
yea? thankx
I love you
no you don't
...

so I gained a few pounds, and my boyfriends not here to force feed me so I can work it off in a few weeks.
I ordered stuff from forever21 and I'm going to fast until they get here. no more 3,000 calorie binge/purge sessions. I;m putting that to a stop for good... again. I mean it this time though. I'm tired of all the pain.

Gosh I 'm fucking huge!!!!!!!